It’s really strange to get used to when you think about it, but A also reminded me of myself and so it felt natural. I’m not too much like either gender so it seems normal to be kind of in the middle, floating…like that.
This book was really emotionally intense. I had a kind of love/hate relationship with it. I hated the idea of it but at the same time I found it really fascinating. I couldn’t really figure out the mechanics of it but then again that wasn’t the point. I’m big on finding the point of things. I mean, essentially it’s trying to make a point about how important looks are to people/relationships, but it’s saying a lot more than that. And not just about relationships. It’s also about trust, too, and other things.
Rhiannon was disappointing. I wanted her to be The One, and A seemed to think she was, but she didn’t feel right to me. It’s amazing that she was able to keep with it, but in the end, I don’t think they could ever have been together. It would just be too difficult. I can’t imagine being in her shoes. It was hard to feel as if she was genuine, but some of that may have been tainted by the fact that she just simply could not get used to the situation. And that’s perfectly reasonable. But I wasn’t sympathetic to the whole thing. It just didn’t feel right. She deserved better than Justin, but A deserved better than her.
You know what I found interesting? The fact that A’s email account was the one solid physical thing that was A’s own. It was proof that A existed, and something only A would have access to because only A knew the password. That was it. That’s a reason I was so fascinated by A’s interaction with Nathan through email. Nathan was the only one really talking to just A, to A’s true self, untainted by any physical appearances or boundaries.
What are my thoughts on A’s body switching? Hm. I don’t really have much to say about it. It just is. It’s a thing that A does, and has always done. It’s a lifestyle. It’s sad, and exciting, and scary. I would always be afraid of messing up if I were A. Not being able to access quickly enough or something. It’s also sad to not be able to hold onto anything real. It’s depressing. I wouldn’t have been able to live with myself that long, not knowing who I really was or could be.
I said the book was about trust, and that’s a big part of it. Not all of it but an important part. Rhiannon had to trust A an awful lot. A had to trust Rhiannon. It was difficult. Nathan and A had to trust each other. If there was no trust, A would simply be a different person, every day. A wouldn’t really exist. At least to everyone else.
The plot gets more exciting as the book goes on, even if it’s not entirely sure where it’s going. There are a lot of possibilities, even if for now it’s just some long rambly depressing mess…but a good one.
Also, am I the only one tripped out by the cover?