Published by Knopf Books on January 6th 2015
Genres: Contemporary, Romance, Young Adult
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The Fault in Our Stars meets Eleanor and Park in this exhilarating and heart-wrenching love story about a girl who learns to live from a boy who intends to die.
Theodore Finch is fascinated by death, and he constantly thinks of ways he might kill himself. But each time, something good, no matter how small, stops him.
Violet Markey lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister’s recent death.
When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school, it’s unclear who saves whom. And when they pair up on a project to discover the “natural wonders” of their state, both Finch and Violet make more important discoveries: It’s only with Violet that Finch can be himself—a weird, funny, live-out-loud guy who’s not such a freak after all. And it’s only with Finch that Violet can forget to count away the days and start living them. But as Violet’s world grows, Finch’s begins to shrink.
This is an intense, gripping novel perfect for fans of Jay Asher, Rainbow Rowell, John Green, Gayle Forman, and Jenny Downham from a talented new voice in YA, Jennifer Niven.
Includes a PDF Help Line Resource Guide and a Note Read by the Author.
This book nearly killed me. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t function. I knew it was going to be a book that caused feels, but I didn’t know quite how harsh it was until it happened. I mean, the signs were there, but I was mistakenly assuming there would be some kind of happy ending. I had to set it aside for a day before gathering the strength to finish it. View Spoiler » I seriously had to go through a mourning period. I had to come to terms with it. I was thinking that the death of a loved one was the worst thing to have to live through- my depression was picking up at this point- but I tried to be rational- these people are fictional. Then I realized, they are still my loved ones. I am still affected the same way. I feel their loss as keenly. I live and breathe fiction. But in the end, trying to be rational was the only way I was able to cope. (And then the author’s note hit me even harder.) « Hide Spoiler Because this book was able to disrupt my life in such a way, I gave it 5 stars because I believe the more a book affects you, the more powerful and important it is, and the better it is for you as a person. It will make you learn and grow somehow.
It’s still very hard for me to think about it, let alone discuss it. I have to hold off thinking about that moment and just remember the before, which was a long time. And I truly thought it was going to end up a happy book. This book has no happy ending. No silver lining. It is a story of loss, harsh and plain with the ability to destroy you. When you read the last pages, it will be with a resigned feeling, not one of contentment. Maybe there will be a little closure, but no satisfaction. At that point, you’ll just be reading it to finish, to end the heartbreak and try to stop the feeling of it tearing apart every little piece of your soul.
I don’t know how made for each other Violet and Finch were, but they certainly got along in a way that I don’t think they could have with anyone else. It’s a shame it took Violet a while to get used to Finch. By then, I think he was beyond her help. But that’s always the question she’ll- we’ll- be asking.
I did like Finch. His weirdness was cool. He was so genuine about the things that no one else was, yet he lied about normal things. He was a character. I identified with him a bit, but I feel like I didn’t understand quite why he thought the way he did. There was a lot of thinking but little explanation why.
I liked Violet, although less than Finch. It took a little too long for her to take her wall down and I saw her as unfeeling for most of the book. But at least I can understand why. (Extenuating Circumstances)
Honestly, I really don’t know what to make of it. It was a good story, and then it was awful, and I gave it five stars but I will never allow it in my house again because it almost killed me. So…read at your own risk. Feel the feels. Might as well enjoy the filler in our lives before the inevitable end.
“Not all those who wander are lost.”
…but some are.
(the original quote was by J.R.R. Tolkien)